DAY TWO - social media
In my experience, social media can be both a coping mechanism as well as a painful reminder. For example, I’ll put time and effort into taking the * perfect * picture of a tree, and surround it with the glitteriest of gifs for my story. “Nice!” I say to myself, and close the app. The reminder comes later in the day, as I’m checking my views. Everyone at my school always brags about their views. “I get 300 views on every story!” “Oh yeah? I get at least 800!” I’d sit silently, trying to ignore it, but it would always nag me. “Why do they get so many views? Do people just not like me? Am I just boring?” So now, here I am, checking the views on a story I was so proud of. I click, filled with hope... and..
2 views. Just 2 views !? It’s been 11 hours now, how do I just have 2 views??
At first, I’d get 7 views, and they slowly began decreasing until nobody (and I mean nooobody) saw my story if they could help it. Sometimes, I’d see 3 views on the first picture of my story and when I’d click to the next picture, there were no views. (These pictures were posted together) Which meant they had accidentally watched my story, and had clicked off immediately. This hit me pretty hard. I was already having friend problems at school, and to see that nobody even wanted to see a 6 second glimpse into my life was devastating. I had nobody viewing my posts, and in return, I felt like a nobody myself.
Then came the ‘jealousy’ aspect. My posts, which I had put time into, got no views. If you go to the story of a pretty girl at my school, you typically find:
1. Lots and lots and loooots of selfies.
These typically get lots of views, lots of likes (on Instagram) and lots of comments. This always angered me. What is so great about this? 1000 views, seriously?? All she’s doing is puckering her lips and lip syncing (poorly) to a random rap song.
In real life, the differences are pretty evident between those who are popular and those who are not, but on social media they are showcased for all to see. 3 likes and a comment from her grandma, versus 191 likes and 12 comments from kids at our school. (Not that I don’t appreciate your comments, grandma 👵🏻 ❤️)
-RedPanda
2 views. Just 2 views !? It’s been 11 hours now, how do I just have 2 views??
At first, I’d get 7 views, and they slowly began decreasing until nobody (and I mean nooobody) saw my story if they could help it. Sometimes, I’d see 3 views on the first picture of my story and when I’d click to the next picture, there were no views. (These pictures were posted together) Which meant they had accidentally watched my story, and had clicked off immediately. This hit me pretty hard. I was already having friend problems at school, and to see that nobody even wanted to see a 6 second glimpse into my life was devastating. I had nobody viewing my posts, and in return, I felt like a nobody myself.
Then came the ‘jealousy’ aspect. My posts, which I had put time into, got no views. If you go to the story of a pretty girl at my school, you typically find:
1. Lots and lots and loooots of selfies.
These typically get lots of views, lots of likes (on Instagram) and lots of comments. This always angered me. What is so great about this? 1000 views, seriously?? All she’s doing is puckering her lips and lip syncing (poorly) to a random rap song.
In real life, the differences are pretty evident between those who are popular and those who are not, but on social media they are showcased for all to see. 3 likes and a comment from her grandma, versus 191 likes and 12 comments from kids at our school. (Not that I don’t appreciate your comments, grandma 👵🏻 ❤️)
-RedPanda
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